My gorgeous night snack from just now was this Christmassy ‘snack plate’:
3x cranberry + almond crackers, Brie, orange cinnamon jam, 3x pesto crackers, half an apple + cinnamon date bar, two squares of white chocolate + one square of cranberry dark chocolate. (!!!) Eaten with lots of grapes and orange slices 💕
Whilst I was making this I was definitely aware that some people would just eat ONE of the items I was. Some people would just eat the grapes, or like one square of chocolate.
I felt anxious, uncomfortable, but also.. unbothered.
If that’s what TRULY makes them feel strong, healthy, happy, and at their best.. then fine.
But I have to look after me.
I know how much I need to eat, what I need to eat, and what I want to eat. Because your body talks to you. Your body looks after you, and at the same time, you must look after your body.
I know that when I eat, I feel so much better. If I eat too little in a day, even just half a day, I notice I’m weak, I’m cold, I can’t think or concentrate.
You know, something I didn’t realise until only a couple of months ago was that
CALORIES = ENERGY.
Whaaaaat?! I was so confused! All this time, calories, the thing I feared so much, was literally just what kept us going!
And that low calorie eating = low energy eating.
I’ve seen proof of it too. A couple of times, I have eaten more calories than I wanted to. Amounts that frightened me. But every time I did.. something changed in me, I had a personality, I was way more active (naturally), I was warm, my thoughts weren’t about food, my memory was better, my sense of humour was better, and I took more of an interest in the world and little things.
Food heals. Food makes us well and strong and happy. Food builds culture and family.
I know it’s scary, but it’s true.
I’m working on realising it.
You deserve food. All kinds of it.
So much love, and I hope you’re having a wonderful December
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